Blog

23rd December, 2022

Friday Poem – ‘Hide and Seek’ by Hannah Hodgson


This week’s Friday Poem is ‘Hide and Seek’ by Hannah Hodgson from her debut collection 163 Days which was recently longlisted for the Barbellion Prize.

This cover shows a photo of artist Sue Austin floating underwater in her wheelchair over a bed of yellow coral. The text reads: 163 Days. Hannah Hodgson.

In her debut collection 163 Days Hannah Hodgson uses a panoply of medical, legal, and personal vocabularies to explore what illness, death and dying does to a person as both patient and witness. In her long poem ‘163 Days’, her longest period of hospitalisation to date, she probes various truths which clash like a tray of dropped instruments in a silent operating theatre. The mundanity of hospital life is marbled by a changing landscape of mood, hope and loss. A gap yawns between the person she is, and the person in her medical notes. In ‘Aftercare’, Hannah navigates the worlds of both nightclubs and hospice care as she embarks on a new version of her life as a disabled adult. An important collection, in which Hodgson’s true voice takes poetry into difficult places.

Hide and Seek
My mother learns I’m in trouble when a nurse says Resus
like it rhymes with Dr Seuss. Re-seuss. He turns
the monitor away from me. My body writing
a tell-all-book, the hospital needs
to protect me from. I can feel my heart
blinking on that screen, flickering as my cursor.
The machine keeps alerting the staff towards
my apparent death. I’m too shallow
to be captured. The doctor spends fifteen minutes
trying to get a cannular into one of the branches
inside my arm. How many times does a blood pressure cuff
need to confirm my consciousness?
How many times do I need to tell my mother
which of my documents to burn?

163 Days is available on the Seren website: £9.99

Create your free Seren account and enjoy 20% off every book you buy from us.